THE ANGUISH OF YOUNG PEOPLE
By Pierre, October 31st, 2006
Steady now! It won’t be long.
Will anyone miss me?
Oh I hope so!
I hope someone will cry tomorrow morning.
I hope that she will cry…
I take one last glimpse of this world.
I want to fly away
To fly away…
*****
My God what have I done?
No! I’m sorry!
My heart is too heavy
My wings wont let me fly
Forgive me
I had no right…
I open one eye, then the other
I’m hurting everywhere… but I am relieved!
Do I have to thank the angel who brought me back?
Or must I curse him again, as I done so many times before?
But a great peace overtakes me.
It’s indescribable
For the first time of my life, I don’t need anything
And I wait. At peace with myself
In sync with the world.
I ponder the events.
Had I been selfish?
More than likely!
Shown courage?
It doesn’t matter.
Alone?
What an illusion!
Time passes, transitory and unending.
Unbearable and yet so soft…
But what do I see? This night, sixty years later,
What a light!
Does it come to seek me?
****
I’m flying now!
And what peace! …
I don’t feel anything but
this insane softness.
Now I can
surrender to the beauty of
of this light
and the purity of this whiteness
Oh I don’t deserve
such a communion
And yet I wish it
from the depths of my soul
I WISH IT
Since He offers me his hand…
I accept
And at once
I burn intensely with Him and in Him
I love you…
Pierre, 2006