THE ANGUISH OF YOUNG PEOPLE

 

By Pierre, October 31st, 2006

 

 

 Steady now! It won’t be long.

 Will anyone miss me?

Oh I hope so!

I hope someone will cry tomorrow morning.

I hope that she will cry…

 

I take one last glimpse of this world.

I want to fly away

To fly away…

*****

 

My God what have I done?

 

No! I’m sorry!

 

My heart is too heavy

My wings wont let me fly

 

Forgive me

 

I had no right…

 

 I open one eye, then the other

I’m hurting everywhere… but I am relieved!

 

Do I have to thank the angel who brought me back?

Or must I curse him again, as I done so many times before?

 

But a great peace overtakes me.

It’s indescribable

For the first time of my life, I don’t need anything

And I wait. At peace with myself

In sync with the world.

 

I ponder the events.

Had I been selfish?

More than likely!

Shown courage?

It doesn’t matter.

Alone?

What an illusion!

 

Time passes, transitory and unending.

Unbearable and yet so soft…

But what do I see? This night, sixty years later,

What a light!

Does it come to seek me?

****

 

I’m flying now!

And what peace! …

I don’t feel anything but

this insane softness.

Now I can

surrender to the beauty of

of this light

and the purity of this whiteness

 

Oh I don’t deserve

such a communion

And yet I wish it

from the depths of my soul

I WISH IT

 

Since He offers me his hand…

 

I accept

 

And at once

 

 I burn intensely with Him and in Him

 

I love you…

Pierre, 2006